plushies

so, perhaps you're expecting a collection of plushies here. not the case, at least for the moment. however, the two plushies i have are ever special and extremely close to my heart

i should probably let you know that these two are what i call "travel buddies" this is the role they play in my life. safe travels while i am sleeping. sleep is necessary, however the nightmares i often have are not. what i can always count on though. is that should i wake up, at any time, my travel buddies are in my arm or laying on my chest

so let me introduce you to...

theo

theo comfortably lays in my left arm every night. he was originally a gift for an ex that never took to him. one day i realized i still had theo despite having broken up for some time. originally the negative feelings prompted me to want to discard theo. however i soon realized that because my ex had no attachment to theo like at all. i could instead create my own memory and attachment to theo instead

mazzy

much like theo, i came across mazzy in my room one day. i'm not sure where mazzy came from, but as i tell her, "i'm glad you're here". mazzy comfortably lays on my chest every night. my right arm presses her lightly against me. mazzy has a rather special power. she came with a heart that when turned on, creates a calming heartbeat. i've found that the rhythm of this heartbeat is often calming, and can relieve some of the stress i may have to help me fall asleep